1. Today, after the much publicized media coverage of Robin Williams’ suicide, I would yet again like to be 100% honest and raw Deanna and share a GRATEFUL post for my therapist Valerie. We have been seeing each other for about 4 years and I publicly declare, she is one of my BEST FRENDS. I am not ashamed or embarrassed for seeing Valerie. She is a light in my life, helps me see things a different way, encourages me but is also frank and honest when she sees me handling things in a way I shouldn’t. She is a fantastic, unbiased guide and I absolutely treasure her.

    Mental health issues are swept under the rug and treated so very ignorantly. Think about it, if you hear someone at work is taking a leave of absence for cancer treatment, you immediately are filled with compassion and understanding…no? If someone takes a leave for “needing a mental break” or “issues pertaining to one’s mental health”, the giggles, looks and judgements would quickly swirl around your workplace …. the “she is kind of crazy” would be tossed about, the words “unstable” “bipolar”, get used inappropriately, unfairly, insensitively.

    I have never been diagnosed with anything but 4 years ago I hit a wall. The wall I hit was being so very disappointed in how people treat one another. That is what brought me in to therapy. I was disgusted with how humans handled their humanity. I felt like I was an odd ball: loving, caring, respectful, thoughtful and did not feel that treatment coming back in my direction. I can tell you all now with out shame that I truly wanted to check out.

    Why didn’t I check out? 4 reasons:

    1. I couldn’t do that to my parents. They would have completely blamed themselves and I could never do that to them.
    2. Who would take care of my dogs/my babies
    3. I simply was not brave enough
    4. There was darkness all around me but there was one, tiny, teeny, sliver of light…HOPE…and for that promise of HOPE, I could not do it.

    For those of you saying “Suicide is selfish”, I say you are COMPASSIONLESS. “SELFISH” is what brought me to my breaking point. The selfish, insensitive hearts of others. Which is why on a daily I soap box loving each other more, checking in with each other more, smiling to strangers, hugging, sending an unexpected text or email of encouragement, ACTUALLY PICKING UP THE PHONE AND JUST PULLING A STEVIE WONDER: “I JUST CALLED TO SAY I LOVE YOU”.

    I understand suicide because I’ve considered it. More than once.

    I stay in treatment because humanity is not getting any better, it’s getting worse and I need the support. Guess what.. all of us do. I advise everyone to seek some form of mental therapeutic treatment because everyone needs it. EVERYONE.

    Hopefully this post will call to action more love and compassion amongst my friends rather than judgement.

    Here’s the fun thing about me: I care not what you think. I learned that from Valerie.

    She wrote this down for me one day and it hangs on the wall in my office:
    “I will not judge myself based on how others treat me”

    Have a great day everyone…love a little more. x

    "What the world needs now is love, sweet love
    It’s the only thing that there’s just too little of
    What the world needs now is love, sweet love
    No, not just for some but for everyone”

  2. I post funny Facebook status’ about my dating life in LA and my crazy life in general.. so I was encouraged to start a dating blog… I did.

    If you follow me here, please also follow:

    http://phuckcarriebradshaw.tumblr.com

    Thanks!!!

  3. I just watched #XinranJi ‘s father cry in agony over the senseless & random murder of his son. BEATEN TO DEATH. Where’s the outrage?!! Yo, I truly need parents to start putting the fear of God back in to their kids. Raise your CHILDREN! Teach them well, watch them, guide them!  Some people today are raising WILD ANIMALS! Google this story, look at the ages of this poor man’s assailants…. WE SHOULD ALL FEAR FOR OUR LIVES! My heart is absolutely broken for this family & any family that has to face this kind of tragedy. We are responsible for our own corners of the world… #BeYourOwnHero #BYOH #XinranJi #RIP #USC #love #change #murder #senseless #STOP #getYOKIDSRIGHT #dosomething #condolences

    I just watched #XinranJi ‘s father cry in agony over the senseless & random murder of his son. BEATEN TO DEATH. Where’s the outrage?!! Yo, I truly need parents to start putting the fear of God back in to their kids. Raise your CHILDREN! Teach them well, watch them, guide them! Some people today are raising WILD ANIMALS! Google this story, look at the ages of this poor man’s assailants…. WE SHOULD ALL FEAR FOR OUR LIVES! My heart is absolutely broken for this family & any family that has to face this kind of tragedy. We are responsible for our own corners of the world… #BeYourOwnHero #BYOH #XinranJi #RIP #USC #love #change #murder #senseless #STOP #getYOKIDSRIGHT #dosomething #condolences

  4. So excited to do my 1st interviews as a #Host for  @hustleTVLA today w/ the incredible talents of @sirelijahblake & @djcarisma ! Will post links when they become available, be sure to tune into #timewarnercable ! #HustleTV #HustleTVLA #tv #rnb #hiphop #dj #songwriter #artist #singer #usher #climax #power106 #LA #losangeles #california #beyourownhero #BYOH #deannabombchica #deanna #bombchica #radio #personality #repost #rp #music #droppingsoon #tunein #checkitout #granmy #artium #noid #insider #scoop #theitalianwendywilliams #thestraightellendegeneres #TWC

    So excited to do my 1st interviews as a #Host for @hustleTVLA today w/ the incredible talents of @sirelijahblake & @djcarisma ! Will post links when they become available, be sure to tune into #timewarnercable ! #HustleTV #HustleTVLA #tv #rnb #hiphop #dj #songwriter #artist #singer #usher #climax #power106 #LA #losangeles #california #beyourownhero #BYOH #deannabombchica #deanna #bombchica #radio #personality #repost #rp #music #droppingsoon #tunein #checkitout #granmy #artium #noid #insider #scoop #theitalianwendywilliams #thestraightellendegeneres #TWC

  5. I am so excited to announce that I will be a host for #HustleTV ! 🙌🌟🎉🎈 With that being said if you are an #artist #producer #songwriter #creative #actor #actress #model #comedian #gamechanger #entrepeneur #visionary #inspiration #designer #athlete MAKING MOVES, hit me so Hustle TV can interview YOU! We are on #TimeWarnerCable 📺 - Channel 36 at 7:30pm on Fri. & Sat. Nights, check times for The OC & San Bernardino! CHECK out the SITES: 
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    I am so excited to announce that I will be a host for #HustleTV ! 🙌🌟🎉🎈 With that being said if you are an #artist #producer #songwriter #creative #actor #actress #model #comedian #gamechanger #entrepeneur #visionary #inspiration #designer #athlete MAKING MOVES, hit me so Hustle TV can interview YOU! We are on #TimeWarnerCable 📺 - Channel 36 at 7:30pm on Fri. & Sat. Nights, check times for The OC & San Bernardino! CHECK out the SITES:
    www.HustleGrind.com
    www.AllHipHop.com
    www.WeTheWest.com
    www.MotaHipHop.com ➡️➡️➡️➡️And on #TWITTER #FOLLOW➡️➡️➡️➡️➡️➡️➡️➡️ @deannabombchica @hustleTVLA @DJHustle
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  6. I encourage each of you to share this picture. To adopt a shelter pet. To support your local animal advocacy group. 

These are my four dogs: Lola, Lily, Layla and Sprinkles. The lights of my life. The most incredible love ever. All of them are rescues, except Lola (she was a gift from my parents from a breeder before WE fully understood how bad breeder’s are)…and I often say that she saved ME! She is her name….A true diva—- whatever LOLA wants, LOLA gets… all personality! She is my little savior, my princess, the Queen of this castle for sure! (We’d have it no other way!)

Lily was rescued from being euthanized at 4 months. She had days to live. She had horrible mange and worms and was a very sick little girl. Antibiotics and a whole lot of love brought her back to health and happiness. She has a personality that screams “I AM SO HAPPY TO BE ALIVE AND I LOVE EVERYONE”… She is ferocious with her love and will lick anyone to DEATH! 

Layla was found as a tiny pup at the Glendale Galleria mall in the dead of heat in a box with her tiny brothers. Abandoned, no water , in the hot sun. I quickly found the brothers homes and after hours of walking around the mall, trying to find families to adopt them…no one wanted the one little girl. I kept her in hopes of finding her a home… I failed. She quickly became my shadow and of all my dogs is the most protective of me. Try and tell her she is a mere 10 lbs… she thinks she is a pit bull and if you come at her too quickly..she will tell you to back up. No one gets to me without her permission. She is my gatekeeper. 

Sprinkles was a pure gift from God. Her owner had 3 dogs and suddenly passed away. The story I was told was that when the EMT arrived and found the woman dead, Sprinkles was right by her side while the others were nowhere to be found.  I was working with an animal rescue  group that acquired Sprinkles and after a whole day of trying to find her a home, I agreed that rather than return her to a kennel, I would foster her until the next adoption day. Needless to say, she never saw another Sunday adoption event. I was a foster failure… she captured my heart and is the sweetest, warmest, most well behaved girl in my bunch.

I wanted to finally tell each of my babies stories. I had no idea that when I got my pets the unconditional love that they have brought to me…and in turn I have been able to share. They are mutts…mixes but absolutely perfect. 

I encourage you, implore you to consider visiting your local shelter and saving one today… and by saving one I truly mean: saving YOU! 

You will never again be lonely. You will never again wonder if someone is approaching the front door. You will never again have a discussion and have to worry about talk back! They just listen, they just love, they just cuddle…They are just awesome.

DO NOT SUPPORT BREEDERS. DO NOT SUPPORT PET SHOPS UNLESS THEY SPECIFY THEIR DOGS ARE RESCUES. SPAY AND NEUTER YOUR ANIMAL! 

ADOPT A SHELTER PET TODAY… YOU WILL BE SO HAPPY YOU DID!

SHARE THIS WITH LOVE! XO

    I encourage each of you to share this picture. To adopt a shelter pet. To support your local animal advocacy group.

    These are my four dogs: Lola, Lily, Layla and Sprinkles. The lights of my life. The most incredible love ever. All of them are rescues, except Lola (she was a gift from my parents from a breeder before WE fully understood how bad breeder’s are)…and I often say that she saved ME! She is her name….A true diva—- whatever LOLA wants, LOLA gets… all personality! She is my little savior, my princess, the Queen of this castle for sure! (We’d have it no other way!)

    Lily was rescued from being euthanized at 4 months. She had days to live. She had horrible mange and worms and was a very sick little girl. Antibiotics and a whole lot of love brought her back to health and happiness. She has a personality that screams “I AM SO HAPPY TO BE ALIVE AND I LOVE EVERYONE”… She is ferocious with her love and will lick anyone to DEATH!

    Layla was found as a tiny pup at the Glendale Galleria mall in the dead of heat in a box with her tiny brothers. Abandoned, no water , in the hot sun. I quickly found the brothers homes and after hours of walking around the mall, trying to find families to adopt them…no one wanted the one little girl. I kept her in hopes of finding her a home… I failed. She quickly became my shadow and of all my dogs is the most protective of me. Try and tell her she is a mere 10 lbs… she thinks she is a pit bull and if you come at her too quickly..she will tell you to back up. No one gets to me without her permission. She is my gatekeeper.

    Sprinkles was a pure gift from God. Her owner had 3 dogs and suddenly passed away. The story I was told was that when the EMT arrived and found the woman dead, Sprinkles was right by her side while the others were nowhere to be found. I was working with an animal rescue group that acquired Sprinkles and after a whole day of trying to find her a home, I agreed that rather than return her to a kennel, I would foster her until the next adoption day. Needless to say, she never saw another Sunday adoption event. I was a foster failure… she captured my heart and is the sweetest, warmest, most well behaved girl in my bunch.

    I wanted to finally tell each of my babies stories. I had no idea that when I got my pets the unconditional love that they have brought to me…and in turn I have been able to share. They are mutts…mixes but absolutely perfect.

    I encourage you, implore you to consider visiting your local shelter and saving one today… and by saving one I truly mean: saving YOU!

    You will never again be lonely. You will never again wonder if someone is approaching the front door. You will never again have a discussion and have to worry about talk back! They just listen, they just love, they just cuddle…They are just awesome.

    DO NOT SUPPORT BREEDERS. DO NOT SUPPORT PET SHOPS UNLESS THEY SPECIFY THEIR DOGS ARE RESCUES. SPAY AND NEUTER YOUR ANIMAL!

    ADOPT A SHELTER PET TODAY… YOU WILL BE SO HAPPY YOU DID!

    SHARE THIS WITH LOVE! XO

  7. God bless those of us that have the COURAGE to be artists.

    We have to have a faith & determination capable of moving mountains. We have to find the strength every day to wake up and though our talent be boundless, potentially realize that it will never be recognized, never have the chance to truly be appreciated. Our art gets judged daily and usually by people not even qualified to judge it.

    We have to accept the fact that we work on the speculation of selling our art and likely fall victim of taking far less than we are worth.

    Imagine asking a doctor because the “budget” doesn’t allow his rate if he could take less for performing a surgery? Sounds insulting and almost insane… but artists do this every day.

    We have to accept that someone else, someone who’s talent may not even be up to snuff will go farther, be bigger, greater, more achieved because you know what…. LIFE just isn’t far.

    Ahhh to be gifted and talented… A blessing & a curse. I am still thankful for what HE has led me to & through… And ever thankful for my FAITH that truly could move a mountain.

    I should have given up…I just don’t ever see it happening.

    (The musings of 3:59am insomnia)

  8. I got my degree from the prestigious Berklee College Of Music from this woman on graduation day.

    I performed her songs for her in a Tribute show, where she approached me afterwards and said.. and I quote ” You are a sangin’ something! You’re a lil’ Patti”..

    I wholeheartedly agree Auntie Patti… anybody is a DIVA today and it is a damn shame!

    http://necolebitchie.com/2014/01/22/patti-labelle-all-these-heifers-who-cant-sing-are-called-divas/

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  10. I have a big family. I have a family that has a vicious cycle of going years without talking to one another. It started with our parent’s parents. Moved through our parents and now exists amongst my cousins, their siblings. I don’t know what it is. Bitterness, jealousy, resentment, anger…Don’t know. BUT it exists…and to me it’s sad that people can’t find compassion and forgiveness and move on. That people can’t find a way to allow someone in their life (even if it is with limits), to try to bridge gaps—-to forgive and forget, to understand. To let bygones be bygones. To get a clean slate and start at Day 1. NO. It seems our family reunions happen at funerals. SAD.

    All this to say, I refuse to take part. If there’s been issues, I communicate. I love my family. I love my aunts and uncles. I love my cousins. I don’t care about what Uncle so and so did to Auntie so and so. Not my concern. I have one family. That’s it.

    This post is not to point fingers, this post is not to start trouble…hopefully the reverse.

    THERE IS SO MUCH PAIN AND TRAGEDY IN THIS WORLD: if we can not fix it within our own homes, what are we?

    I wish I had a closer relationship with my own Brother…but I understand 1. WE are very different human beings and 2. He is very busy with his wife, 2 kids, job and every day life and he lives in Utah, not down the street, not the next town over. I know he loves me and I love him…even if he misses my bday or something.. no biggie. I know his heart..and I don’t hold his heart against him.

    So with this.. I say Sunday: I see my cousin Kathleen Auterio and her husband Lance Eason for the first time in over 30 years. I’m so excited. As excited as I was to see my cousin Sean William Kelley last year that I hadn’t seen in over 20 years. (FYI I have no bad blood with either—it was life and circumstances that kept us away). I am so glad that regardless of any pre-conceived notions our parents may have had, WE are not allowing that to stop us from getting to know each other. It’s never too late. NO… I take that back, It’s only too late at that funeral.

    I am excited because this is what we got down here: Family and Friends. I think we are all here in a great experiment called “LOVE”. I think God hands us situations and sits back to see how we deal with it.

    I have decided to deal with my situations in forgiveness and compassion. I am trying daily to “understand” more and to be “understood”.

    I am not perfection, I am far from it and a very, very serious work in progress… but I am one person looking at the man in the mirror and getting her right before I turn and pass judgement on anyone else.

    Until you are perfect, I implore you to do the same. At least consider it. At least TRY.

    Love and Light xo

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